《橘生淮南》读书笔记

《橘生淮南》读书笔记

　　原来在乎一个人的时候，表面上装成什么样子都没有用，那些曾经被她鄙视的种种情绪一一放肆地浮上心头。电影中当剧情开始转折的时候，天时地利都顺从着主人公的觉醒而大逆转。然而老天这样忽冷忽热地对待她，她那终于勇敢了一次的决心和骄傲感立即溃不成军。她可以做决定，但是她真的说了不算。

　　It turned out that whatever you pretended to be on the surface was useless when you really cared about someone, all kinds of emotions that were despised by her floated overwhelmingly in her mind. In a film everything always went smoothly as the hero wished upon the time of his awakening. However, she was treated so unfairly by the fate, making all her pride and courage broke down after being brave for just one time. She could make her own decision, but that didn’t count.

　　原来她独自一人在这场旷日持久的沉默暗恋中耽搁了太久，对每种难过和伪装驾轻就熟，却从未懂得，在两个人的感情世界中，一锤定音的，不是心有灵犀的.睿智，不是旗鼓相当的欣赏，更不是死心塌地的仰望。是心疼，是怜惜。是两难境地里，那一点点无可奈何的舍不得。

　　At last she had been lingering alone in the secret love for such a long time. She had been good at hiding all her emotions, no matter happiness or sorrow, but she still couldn’t understand the fact that in the relationship belonging to two individuals what really mattered was not the sensibility and understanding between two wise minds, not the respect and admiration towards the other who was equal in ability. The most important thing was the moment when man and woman felt tender and protective towards each other. That was what you held on to in dilemma.

　　她会把故事讲得很好听。实际生活中，时间控制束缚了她；而在故事里，她是主人，控制着空间和时间四处飞驰，并且能把被日常琐碎所掩埋的线索捡起来，重新梳理编排，一定要把听众讲到如痴如醉泪眼滂沱。然而只是想法而已。故事也许并不像她想象中的那么容易讲——因为讲着讲着，就会怜悯起从前那个被困在时间里面眺望未来的自己，心里很难过。

　　She can write good stories. In reality, the time controls and bounds her, but in stories, she is the master who can order the space and the time to fly around and reach anywhere she imagines. She can also collect the clues buried by daily trivialities, comb them and arrange them and she is confirmed that she can make her audience intoxicated and even cry for some plots. However, that’s just her assumption. Stories are not as easy as she imagines because she can always see the former self who was trapped in time and drew a vague picture of the future in vain, and she feels depressed.